So it begins

Im 28 years old. I have not worn a bikini in public, in front of strangers, with confidence, for 10 years. Seeing that written down makes me pretty upset I allowed my 20s, the best years of your life, to just get away from me like that. I spent those 10 years hating my body, loving my body, being ashamed of my body, being proud of my body, but never confident enough to wear a bikini again.

At age 21 I joined the Navy and left for Boot Camp. I came out of Boot Camp a sexy beast!!! I quickly ruined that body with drinking and eating too much. I was not smart enough to maintain the body I developed. I thought "Well Im sexy as hell I can eat this burrito and drink 8 beers and wake up still sexy!!!"

That might be true for that night, but eventually the weight slowly creeps back on, and when you finally realize it, you are twenty pounds heavier, depressed, and just want to keep eating cookies because there is no way you can get that 20 pounds off in one night! This is Matt and I in November 2009. I went on a deployment, which meant I lived on a ship for a million months without access to booze, or land or anything fun, and spent my days working and working out. I lost about 20 pounds and was back to sexy beast status.



Of course it all came back........ I was unemployed and just going to school and being a lazy asshole who didnt work out. Now Im back working (for TSA, America's most loved organization lol), and just more motivated and happy in general now that I dont stare at the wall all day.

 So heres the deal. We are going to Mexico in exactly two months. I have realistic goals of getting my ass into a bikini and losing about 10-15 pounds. Hell I dont care if I gain weight, as long as I lose inches and gain sexiness! I don't need help with my nutrition, I know the calories in any single piece of food on this planet, I just need to be motivated enough to work out and keep those calories in check. I eat healthy, I just need to eat a litttttle less. Or maybe stop drinking on the weekends........